Right vs Left (brain, not wing)

I've taken those lame magazine quizzes: I am whole-brained. And I agree. My left and right lobes seem to be equally prominent. While in general that seems to be awesome, it can make me a little bit obsessive and impulsive when only half of my personality seems to be getting quality time out in pubic.

When I was a science major, it was fascinating at first but became very very hard and drew out the creative side of me. I was driven to write and felt like I was going crazy under all of the figures and facts and tables when I didn't. I cranked out A LOT of wordage in those few years. When I switched majors, it went away. I joined the College of Humanities instead and couldn't produce a single decent piece outside of a classroom assignment for several months. I tried because I missed writing, but there wasn't anything behind the drive aside from habit. My muse was free of her prison and she wasn't ready to come back.

The right side of my brain greatly enjoyed all the reading and essays I had to do, but the left side missed the structure of the sciences. It began to self-medicate with crossword and sudoku puzzles to try to erect structures in the void. Not a big deal, no, but the puzzles were easy and slightly interfered with my concentration during class. Classes which were not conducted in English, I might add.

Now that I have graduated university, I work. I don't know if it's because of the whole left-right brain thing, I got creative spark that won't be satisfied until my project is done, or because I feel ineffectual at work and need something with enduring results but I have become crafty. There is an afghan-ish blanket that I want to make and I've been spending a lot of my free time working on it. I've also been checking out project books on almost every trip to the library. They're mostly beyond my skill level, but I like looking at them.

I often say that my style involves a little bit of chaos. Perhaps that's what it takes for both facets of my personality to assert themselves since they obviously haven't discovered how to play nicely with each other.

You know what I want? Chocolate cupcakes with fresh raspberry sauce poured over them and topped with whipped cream.